I'd probably describe yesterday as one of the worst days of my life in awhile. Since about this summer. Thats really a long time for me not to have a shitty day though. So Thursday I couldn't swim in my swim meet once again because of my damn nose ring, and then I got home and sat. Which led me to thinking more and more.
God do I hate sitting alone.
I ended up talking to Sam and nothing good came from that.
Now last night was shitty too. I love Gummy to death but she can be so damn annoying sometimes and I don't get it. So I hung out with her and Hogan and all those "radical" PR people. I ended up driving Gummy and her friends around everywhere and then when I asked her for gas money she said she'd pay me later. Which I know will never happen. So I went to Subway and me and Sam hung out all night.
All I wanted was a fucking pumpkin to carve, but no.
They either didn't have them for sale anymore, they were too small or some fucking guy told me that I had to put it back. I didn't want to steal a pumkin I just wanted one to carve. So that idea got fucked over along with me and Sam on our fun times.
And thats what put me over the edge, so I drove until Sam asked me to stop so we could talk. We ended up sitting in Eagle's parking lots for awhile and I just cried and cried and cried. I don't think I've cried that much in wow, along time. So then we finally decided to go somewhere. Both debating leaving Crystal Lake for the night and go to Canada or Missouri :'( We drove to the end of Terra Cotta and then each went home.
Ahhhhhhhhhhh...San Dimas High School Football Rules and I don't mix right now
Well so now I'm sitting crying and just need a fucking hug. And blah I don't know. But I was thinking about it and my best friend hates me, John moved to Montana, Sam and I are no longer, Tristan doesn't believe anything that I say... what other friends do I have? I hate it, my life and all just for now.
My eyes burn from these tears you think you'd learn over these years good things won't last forever